About Me

This is what you’ll find on my blog, and the reasons why.

Why I blog: I’ve suffered with depression ever since young adulthood. Every major life event sent me deeper into that black pit. And then I became a mother and that was the final straw. When I became pregnant for the first time, I dreamed of white cotton dresses, smiley baby faces, and bright sunshine. I knew there would be yucky days, but the thought of staying at home without the pressure of my job seemed too glorious to be true! Plus, my hubby and I had always agreed that if we were going to have children, one of us would stay home to be the primary influence in their lives.

Before this time, I held an important (at least in my mind) job for which I was well-compensated and appreciated. In my job history I had rarely had my authority challenged, or been less than stellar in my performance. I truly found my identity, self-esteem, and definitely my purpose in my day job.

For reasons which I’m not privy too, I came to a place where I had lost 4 things: control, identity, purpose for living, and self-worth. And then in the summer of 2007, I ended up in an in-patient psychiatric facility for 21 days. Since that time and to the present, I am on a very bumpy and difficult road of recovery.

You also need to know one other very important thing: I have been a Christian the whole time. The Bible-believing, firmly-planted, Jesus-loving, Holy Spirit-filled kind. I haven’t even begun to delve into the reasons why and how all this can happen together. One thing I cling to: Jesus is here with me. Through it all. Right here in my black pit. W*I*T*H me.

What I Blog:

• My creative efforts(good, bad, or otherwise) because I find that creativity is healing to my spirit.
• You’ll find tips and tricks that I need to remember myself, and that I hope others will find helpful too; like using journaling and cognitive behavioral therapy.
• You’ll find funny & cute things that my kids do- they bring me back to reality time and time again.
• Oh, and you’ll also find our real names. So, although I may write honestly about my struggle, I always write with the thought that one day my children will read this.

What I DON’T Blog: During those times when I’m absent from my blog, and I haven’t noted why, it is probably because I am struggling.  And posting during my dark times is not a good idea for anyone. I love to share after the fact, in the slightest chance that someone else may be encouraged or helped by it. And if not, then I still have this record of these days of recovery.

My biggest prayer is that you will be touched by God’s gentle hand today.